JUNE 19, 1959

 

        I HAVE SAID I CREATE FOR EXPERIENCE

ONLY, NOT FOR THE FAME OR MONEY, YET CAN

THAT BE POSSIBLE FOR THEN IT WOULD MEAN I

HAVE NOTHING TO SAY. I MUST CREATE FOR OTHERS

SO THAT PERHAPS SOME ONE WILL SEE HIMSELF/HERSELF  

THROUGH ME.

 

        MR. DOSTOEVSKY AMAZES ME. HE SEES WITHIN A MADMAN LIKE NO ONE ELSE HAS. TO BE MAD SEEMS SO FEASIBLE AND EVEN CORRECT. HE MAKES ME FEEL SYMPATHETIC, I (TOO) HAVE HAD FEELINGS OF HANGING OVER THE PRECIPICE TO INSANITY; BEFORE THIS I WAS ASHAMED. NOW I FACE MYSELF AND SEE CLEARLY; NO ONE IS UNIQUE TO SUCH A DEGREE.

 

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